Neshama Carlebach took the stage at the Union for Reform Judaism's biennial in San Diego, Dec. 14 2013. (URJ)<\/p>\n<\/div>\n
I\u2019m honored that the piece originally published in JTA has been printed and reprinted in several languages all over the world, and I\u2019m grateful for the opportunity to continue to reflect.<\/p>\n
On the one hand, I have received messages of love and gratitude and gorgeous expressions of faith from Jews far to the left of where I stand. Similarly, many of my friends from the Conservative and Modern Orthodox movements blessed me for the expansion of my spiritual agenda.<\/p>\n
To all those who have supported me on my spiritual journey, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am humbled and deeply grateful for your sentiments.<\/p>\n
However, I would be lying if I did not confess how deeply hurt I have been by the strident, hateful emails, Facebook posts and Internet comments I\u2019ve also received. I tremble to relate that this week I\u2019ve been accused of being a Christian, a Nazi, a \u201cvile shame to my father\u2019s name and legacy,\u201d a \u201cdesecrator of all the Torah stands for,\u201d and an evil human being trying to destroy my own people. I\u2019ve been demeaned, harassed and called more terrible names than I dare to repeat.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve read and reread all these messages and did not respond \u2014 until now.<\/p>\n
Upon reflection, I realize that so much of this is beyond me, beyond the piece I wrote, and simply coming from a place of deep, shattered brokenness, confusion and pain. Clearly, I touched a nerve. But I want to set the record straight because it seems I\u2019ve been misunderstood on many levels.<\/p>\n
My father, Rabbi Shlomo Carlebach, was a human being blessed with the strength to be present and inspired by every moment and every person he met. Every soul he encountered was \u201cthe deepest,\u201d every celebration was \u201cthe highest,\u201d every experience was \u201cthe best.\u201d He was genuinely able to embrace and see the good in a way that nobody else could, and from that place his gift was his ability to talk about connecting to a higher power \u2014 that is, God.<\/p>\n
What I experienced at the Reform biennial, frankly, is the same thing that I always have loved most about my father\u2019s unique way of expressing his Judaism. The biennial\u2019s inclusiveness, striving for unity, love of humanity without judgment, and honest respect for the individual\/collective journey of the soul were hallmarks of his approach. Rabbi Rick Jacobs, president of the movement, spoke about the importance of \u201caudacious hospitality\u201d above all else, and these words reflect my own mission in this world.<\/p>\n
I would like to believe that I share this mission with my detractors. Aren\u2019t we all trying in our own way to bring meaning, peace and unity to the world?<\/p>\n
In my opinion, peak spiritual experiences happen when we are able to connect to something greater than ourselves, bigger than our own limited existences, beyond time and space. What the Jewish people desperately need at this moment is a greater sense of Klal Yisrael<\/em> \u2014 Jewish peoplehood.<\/p>\nAt the Reform biennial, I did not have a religious experience, but a community experience: My soul made aliyah to the greater Jewish community, to Am Yisrael<\/em>. A portal opened and I saw us as one, connected and bound together by common history and purpose.<\/p>\nI\u2019m still the same person I have always been. I still appreciate and follow the ritual I was raised with, still feel profoundly connected to the way I have always practiced my own Judaism. My statement was one of inclusivity. It is tragic to me that it has been misconstrued as a denunciation of the Orthodox world wherein I was raised.<\/p>\n
Put another way, at the Reform biennial I had a true \u201cShlomo moment.\u201d I was blessed to experience the love for Klal Yisrael in a way I could intellectually grasp but frankly had never felt before.<\/p>\n
To those whom I have offended \u2014 ki va moed<\/em>: The time has come for us to break down the walls of denominationalism and simply be Jewish. It is time for a new way, a new vision, a new moment for us all.<\/p>\nMy song stays the same but my kavanah<\/em> (intention) is deeper, my eyes are open, my family is larger.<\/p>\nMy new recording, \u201cSoul Daughter,\u201d will be released this month. Produced and arranged by Josh Nelson, it features performances by the Broadway cast of \u201cSoul Doctor<\/em><\/strong>,\u201d the play about my father\u2019s life that I was blessed to co-create. As I have been completing my singing for the recording, I feel that I am singing my father\u2019s music from a new, expanded place in my heart, with more tears, vulnerability and longing than I ever was able to feel. As an artist, I thank you for allowing me to access this place in me.<\/p>\nI pray that we will all continue this important conversation, but perhaps with a new level of respect, as brothers and sisters, in the way my father would have want of us.<\/p>\n
(Neshama Carlebach\u2019s new recording can preordered by emailing here<\/a>.)
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